Slow Down, You're Doing Fine
"Slow down, you're doing fine. You can't be everything you want to be before your time." A wise woman recently told me that I've spent my entire life looking ahead toward the future instead of living for the moment, the here and now. The present has always felt unsettling because who I am now is not who I want to be. "Future Me" is everything I'm not - beautiful, successful, happy; s he is always ten steps ahead of me. Though I certainly have days where I do feel those things, those moments seem to whisk away faster than they arrive, a brief haze of what could have been if things had worked out or if I'd done things differently, or if I'd made different choices. Failure to live up to my own unrealistic expectations may in fact be the root cause of my troubles. Perhaps my utter silence on social media has been a sign but I tend to have a "bury my head in the sand" mentality about dealing with difficult or unexpected situations. N